right. up untill the other day i had everything i could ever want. and tbh not much has changed apart from one thing. and i cant seem to get past it. iv not felt this down for a long time. and the worst thing is someone i love has hurt me. it was an accident, it wasn’t meant to happen. but. even so. i cant seem to get past it in my head. i want things to go back to normal :( this time last week i was on cloud 9 !
i hate my job. i duno if everything just seem ten times worse cos i feel like shit. but still. i hant been for 2 days. i doubt they’re guna keep me on for much longer. i need to turn things around. asap.
but just FUCK everything i just said…
my life consits of my friends, a boy, corp and work atm.. which, is pretty perfect cos everyone in it is perfect, apart from work ofc.
[if im being honest, then work dunt totally suck, its just me that sucks cos i hate work.]
ohh wellllllll.
i coundn’t ask for a better best friend. well i have 4 close close friends, but there’s one thats sorta stands out cos shes always been there. i cant say iv known her for years and years and i cant say we always agree on stuff and i cant say shes toatlly insain and i know i annoy her !!!! but its all good cos they turn out to be the best bits :D i know i can ask/ talk to her about anything. she’ll always tell me straight and she’ll never lie to me. i love our random sero convos and absolute crap :| if anyone heard we’d probs be arrested for being to weird.
i dont wanna be one of them people who takes people forgranted so this is just a little thankyou for bein so good to me :)
sooooo work sucks buttttt i need to re focus. this job pays for everything ! car, phone, corp, mcdons, life… i wanna be atattoo artist soooo badly. i need to buy a tat gun and just go for it, i need to keep this job up. i know i keep promising myself things have gotta change. it’s 2011. and things will change !
brthday in like a month today woop :D so excited !!! god knows why… lazer quest and corp sounds like a perfect combo. with everyone that means everything !
i was scared if i ended going out with someone id end up losing people and same back. i know this wont ever happen.
i should be soo happy and ial get back to bein that way again soon :) things take time and i dont wanna rush anything.
typing all this crap out has made me feel sososo much better :)
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